Episode 767: Reckless

"Not on the level that Sebastian and I have made them," Lila countered.

"I’m not perfect," Miss Pretty Close to Perfect claimed, though Lila stayed mum for the moment. Part of her ached to talk to Avalon, to confide in her like the girlfriend she’d never had before. Avalon was smart, and yeah, borderline perfect, which maybe wasn’t such a terrible trait, maybe she’d know the right thing to do.

"I have a situation with my birth mom that you don’t know a lot about," Ava went on, "but let’s just say maybe I haven’t been as forgiving as I could or should be towards her. And look at how I’ve given Bas the runaround about the wedding, that isn’t fair to him. So, I’m not perfect, Lila, I have things I’m not proud of, too. I’m not that judgmental, and you are the one who suggested we talk to each other."

"I must have been really lonely that day and not thinking."

"Well," Ava said, "I have been thinking about it, and I think you’re right. I love Sebastian, but there are some things I need to process before I talk to him about them, like my first non-wedding, talking to him too much about that, it would be hurtful, but, at the same time, his perspective does help me quite often because he’s different from me, he’s more reckless and impulsive, he has a different take. It’s the same with you and Bowie, he’s more cautious, like I am. Each of us having the other’s guy as a friend, it’s basically a sounding board, we’re so similar to them, so yeah, sometimes it’s great to have that friend who agrees with you, but other times you need a dissenting voice who will give you a kick in the pants."

"I’ve never been shy about giving you that."

"Exactly, and you know, the last little while, it’s helped. Bowie would advise me to take this wedding stuff as slow as I need to, and that’s what I was telling myself, too, but you’ve pushed me into it, and yeah, it’s still slow going, but there’s finally some progress. I finally feel like I might someday take that step forward, and it’s a relief. I don’t know how long I’d be waiting if it weren’t for you nudging me to take a different tact. Maybe I can thank you in a similar way, if you’ll let me try."

Episode 768: New Attitude?