Episode 768: New Attitude?Paul knocked at the door for the longest time. He’d hoped progress had happened in Lucy’s office. He’d sensed a softening in her, like maybe she’d started to believe, too, that together, they could really have this, they could have their daughter.
But she still wasn’t answering his calls, or the door.
When the door did at last open, Paul took that as a positive, though Lucy didn’t ask him to sit down, or offer him a cup of coffee. She didn’t even say hello.
Paul waited on the welcome mat.
For a long while, they stood in silence, with Lucy fidgeting and avoiding his eyes.
"Lucy," Paul said. And that was it. They fell into another long spell of no one speaking.
Finally, Lucy really, really looked at him, and admitted, "I don’t know what to do."
Paul pulled her in close, pleased she let him. He had to be careful though, and not push her. "We’ll figure it out together," he said into her hair. "We don’t have to decide today." He burned to though; he longed for the proceedings to finally be in motion, to be one step closer to correcting his mistake.
"I don’t want to blow up her life," Lucy said.
Paul didn’t see how to avoid that, so he didn’t acknowledge it. "Let’s just meet with an attorney first, see what our options are. We won’t do anything until we’re fully informed. We’ll just see. Okay?"
Lucy stepped away from him, for a moment he’d thought he’d said something wrong, he’d thought he’d lost her, but then, after a moment, she said, "okay."
Another few seconds later, she followed up with, "I’m not guaranteeing I’ll fight for custody. I want to do right by her. I just want things to be right for her."
"Good, that’s all I want, too."