Episode 420: Perfect

It was far from the first time her husband had mentioned the subject in the past couple weeks. Yet it still cut Michael as sharply as the first. She knew he was trying to help. She knew she could love a child that didn’t biologically belong to her; it wasn’t a question of that. It was just that not being able to conceive felt like a failure, she, the woman who’d gotten straight A’s in school, one of the most successful PR people in the city, who prided herself on getting everything right, perfect, from her wardrobe to her marriage.

She was failing.

Worse, she felt like she was cheating Curran out of one of life’s greatest gifts, to see your own eyes reflected back at you. He swore it didn’t matter to him. But she couldn’t help feeling like one day it would. One day he’d resent her failure.

"Let’s try a little longer," she suggested, curling up beside him.

"It’s making you miserable." He frowned, softly caressing her face. "I can’t stand it."

"Just think how thrilled I’ll be when it happens. You’ve heard Justine; she’d nearly given up hope and along came Tansy."

"Justine has a screw loose," Curran pointed out with a grimace. "I’m worried enough about you, please don’t compare yourself to her."

Michael frowned at her husband. "She doesn’t have a screw loose, she’s just been going through kind of an identity crisis," Michael contended, leaving out the part Curran had played in that by pushing Justine from the grocery store deal. "That’s not a problem for me. I know what I want. Everything to be perfect. As it should be."

Episode 421: Escapade