Episode 298: Here With You"Well, I tucked him in." Bowie sunk into the sofa beside Lila. She held her slightly rounded tummy, feeling the baby kick through her pink pajamas. He longed to place his hand atop hers but though better of it and folded his hands in his lap.With a little smile, thoughts of Jess always made him smile, he said, "Jesse swears he won’t be able to sleep until the baby comes. We’re really lucky. Lots of kids want to claw out their siblings eyes. But our boy couldn’t be more excited." "Are you excited, Bo?" Lila’s eyes misted. "I am. I want the baby out right now. The longer it takes, the greater the chance the baby isn’t yours. I am so sorry. You shouldn’t have to be here. Keep bailing me out when all I do is hurt you." Bowie gnawed his lower lip. She should be pregnant all the time. Both times it filled her with guilt. She could stand to recognize that more often. "I love Jesse and I’m going to love that baby, mine or not." "But not their mom. You haven’t touched me since you moved back in. I guess I deserve it. I’ve treated you that way enough times. Like you didn’t exist." Tentatively, he wrapped an arm around her shoulder and tucked her head into the crook of his neck. His other hand felt their baby kick. "I love you. If I didn’t I’d still be a father to these kids but I wouldn’t live here. I couldn’t. It’s just we have a lot to fix. You’ve spent years chipping away at my trust. I don’t have any left. I need us to take things slow. Rebuild." |
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